next stop: the future

It has been a couple months since my last post. I have lately been less than inspired by my environment. This post is not meant to be negative but I want to say somethings before I get to my point. I have been faced with so many challenges the past few months of my life. I have had to question friendships about their loyalty and love for me. I have been questioning my teachers that they are more focused on petty things than helping their student succeed. I have also been questioning myself. Where do I really fit in this world and why do I feel so alone? I don’t think these feelings are uncommon, because I felt the same thing right before I graduated high school. I think I let myself get worked up these things because I don’t really want to face whats truly bothering me: my future. Its something that scares me everyday and I am always afraid I am not going to succeed. I feel as if I’m lost on this journey of my life and I don’t know how to get back on the trail. 

But then I remember I’m not alone in this. That these friends I’m questioning are really the ones that are keeping me sane. These teachers who frustrate me are really giving me more keys to my success than I can believe. And I am a strong, hard working individual who shouldn’t fret so much about the future. I need to remember not to wish away this time but to live it. College has changed me in so many awesome ways. I am thankful for this chance to really experience it. Every artist gets in a rut and is afraid of failure. That is the only way we keep working hard, the passion. 

"If I’m honest I have to tell you I still read fairy-tales and I like them best of all."
– Audrey Hepburn 

"I can’t go back to yesterday - because I was a different person then."
– Lewis Carroll 

"You think you want love. You think it is this beautiful gift that does nothing but fill you and make you whole. But you are wrong. Love can be cruel and ugly. It can become dark and cause the deepest pain."
– Carrie Ryan, The Forest of Hands and Teeth 

"Love who you love while you have them. That’s all you can do. Let them go when you must. If you know how to love, you’ll never run out."
– Ann Brashares, My Name Is Memory 

"Why do people think being with someone is the answer to everything?"
– Elizabeth Scott, Love You Hate You Miss You 

"I’m not sorry to be the person I am today, and to have the life I have now. Even though it’s not what I thought I wanted for my future a year ago, it is what I want now."
– Nancy Werlin, Impossible 

"But there is suffering in life, and there are defeats. No one can avoid them. But it’s better to lose some of the battles in the struggles for your dreams than to be defeated without ever knowing what you’re fighting for."
– Paulo Coelho 

(via quote-book)