It has been a couple months since my last post. I have lately been less than inspired by my environment. This post is not meant to be negative but I want to say somethings before I get to my point. I have been faced with so many challenges the past few months of my life. I have had to question friendships about their loyalty and love for me. I have been questioning my teachers that they are more focused on petty things than helping their student succeed. I have also been questioning myself. Where do I really fit in this world and why do I feel so alone? I don’t think these feelings are uncommon, because I felt the same thing right before I graduated high school. I think I let myself get worked up these things because I don’t really want to face whats truly bothering me: my future. Its something that scares me everyday and I am always afraid I am not going to succeed. I feel as if I’m lost on this journey of my life and I don’t know how to get back on the trail.
But then I remember I’m not alone in this. That these friends I’m questioning are really the ones that are keeping me sane. These teachers who frustrate me are really giving me more keys to my success than I can believe. And I am a strong, hard working individual who shouldn’t fret so much about the future. I need to remember not to wish away this time but to live it. College has changed me in so many awesome ways. I am thankful for this chance to really experience it. Every artist gets in a rut and is afraid of failure. That is the only way we keep working hard, the passion.